Hello friends–

Recently, I have realized more than ever that things can change in a blink of an eye.

Literally anything can change.

You can be diagnosed with an illness.

You can lose a friend.

You can lose a loved one.

You can move to a new place.

Your life can do a 360 in a few seconds.

This is unavoidable. Because that’s how life is.

Life is unpredictable but fair. Life is fair because its unfair to everyone. (think about that one)

I truly started to realize this when I found out my grandpa was being admitted to hospice with 72 hours left to live. I have never felt a feeling like that before. Seeing him in a hospital bed, unable to talk and on medicine so strong he was basically a zombie. You don’t know pain until you see someone you love dying. It’s the type of pain you feel in your bones. He has cancer, as many of you know, but I didn’t realize how serious it was. It seemed like in the same second he was admitted to hospice, he did a total 360 and was released for hospice and was 100% better. That was also when I realized you have to truly cherish those close to you every minute of the day. Totally cliche but its so true. PS. If you ever pick up a cigarette, talk to me and I’ll tell you who you’re an idiot.

Lets talking about losing a friend. I’m not talking about death. I’m talking about realizing someone you care about does not care about you. I’ve mentioned this before, but it’s truly a horrible feeling. Realizing after all this time of being there for them, they never truly cared back about you. When you lose a friend, you lose part of yourself. Someone you have told everything for so long but it ended abruptly over something so small. If something small can end a friendship of a long time, it never truly was a great friendship. It’s horrible watching one of your best friends crying because one of their friends decided to up and abandon them. You want to punch that other person in the face. I will never understand how people can pretend to care about someone for so long. When you realize you are treating someone way better than they treat you, that’s when its time to change.

You can get news that changes everything. Recently, a few people I know have received life changing news. Being diagnosed with cancer, or having an unexpected health problem, can flip your world upside down. I think people often take their health for granted. I am so lucky to be in good health. There are so many people fighting for their lives right now, but I am sitting here with perfect health typing to you guys. I hope tonight you realize how lucky you are to be here right now. Many people are robbed of the chance to live the rest of their lives, but I have to remember God has a plan.

I pray nothing bad ever happens to anyone, but of course that’s not feasible. Life doesn’t work like that.

You can’t live life in fear, but you can remember to cherish what you have.

If you have a roof over your head, and you have food in your fridge … you have more than a lot of people.

I hope tonight you realize how lucky you are to have what you have. I often forget to thank God for everything I have and focus on what I have rather than what I don’t have. A lot of people are like that… its a human thing. (being a human is exhausting)

(Next blog post will be happier, I promise.)

I love you all. Thank you so much for all the support and positive feedback you have given me.

Until next time–